I need to find a JOB. It's a serious business I am talking over here. When I start thinking about the paperwork, the KIV file, the litigation file, Conveyancing file, etc etc, I could imagine my life. My very life being only between office and home. Fucking damn it!

Partly true that I am afraid of being question about something so deep and politic especially when I don't even wanna look at them. Remembering the day got into the law school. Ever since then,  I have no other way of going out that deep black hole.

However,as usual, am struggling between reality and dream. In reality,  I want money. No other way except doctor can get as much money as that. Status,reputation and those money!! It's like they are calling my name. Waving towards me. Thought hated the work,nonetheless struggling in between it.

I always wanted to have a work that involve creative thinking. All this job is all over the market. Newbies are also all over the market.  It's a saturated market. Not even a space for you to sneak in. Even if it does, there is no way that you are going make a big money.
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It's like fucking damn it!!!! Working for money or working for interest. It's an obvious answer but remember, in life, money controls you. You like it or not, this is life. My needs doesn't stop at a Kancil or Camry.( sorry to say that) Just like when I got a x-Peria,the next thing I know is  I wanted I-phone so much.

It's fucking life with so many options and yet the greed within my heart controlled me so badly. LIFE,LIFE. Always end up the same way.( please do not advise me about god asking us bla bla..I don't like bullshit advice)