Omgosh!! This is it? 2 weeks of holiday are gone and leave only 6 days of holiday.Don't do this to me.There is not better than staying home and watch tv. My trip to genting is gone and now all I have is this 6 precious days of holiday.



Let's see what we have here--->



1.Shopping (check)

2.Xbox (check)

3 online(seldom,this is not good)

4.Sleep (sufficient)

5.eat(definately more than enough)



Fine then i shouldn't complaint much.



Well, my baby's birthday just passed and he is OFFICIALLY 18th.More picture coming soon.My Cable is not with me so i couldn't update picture from my camera.



Never forget to wish my darling SYE CHIEN a happy birthday too.



watched 2012 yesterday.Guys,this is a fantastic movie.A must watch movie for this year.It's not just an ordinary commercial movie.It's a movie with great sounds and graphic effect and it makes you realise the ugly side of human.Telling you that money is definately something in this world.If there is ever someone telling you that money is nothing,tell them B*ll shit.You may have different opinion about this movie.But this is my comment bout this movie.



More update coming soon.Sorry for the emptying the blog for so long.

The gladest thing in my live:

1.having a loving and caring mother who would do anything just to protect me.

2.Having a Boyfriend who would think twice before doing things and responsible,and who will also protect me no matter how.

3.having a gang of friends who will never betray our friendship.

(i am saying nat,thomas,jp,jac,wan wen and chu ping) You all ROX! XD

4.Having 2 hamsters.

5. Having luck all the time.

Sorry for not updating my blog for so long.Now I am finally back.Activating back this little blog I have.I have been very emotional recently.Love to cry for little stuff I think and sensitive to what people try to do and say.

It all begins with knowing father is back to the old him again and there is no trust between us.Our conversation is just normal greeting.He never realise how much I changed and I am actually more mature and understanding than what he thinks I am.Well, everyone says I am a good actor.Never deny,I am really good actor.I am playing a role as a spy and as a daughter who pretend she knows nothing but she definately knows more than the father think.

Well,I just played with facebook fortune cookies.It actually showed me this:

"Get away from home awhile to recharge energies"

It is so true.I kept on asking myself whether I am trying to
escape from the truth or I am trying to plan for my future ?Well
unfortunately,I
am trying to run away from the truth.I found myself rather
moody this few days.I
jsut suddenly don't know how to start a conversation
with people.Communicating
with people some how seem hard to me now.

Sleeping is a difficult to me.I never told him about this cause I just don't want him to be worry. I have been sleeping late recently.I am not saying 2/3 am as late.It 4-5 am I am saying here.Closing my eyes making me feel scared.What is my next step?What's gonna happen?Should I tell my friends bout my problem?etc..

Well I hope my father realised my change and please I have suffer enough.I just wanna get some rest.

I have not blog for months.Ah....Was actually busy with study.Study, study, Study!!! I have been staying over Brandon's house for 3 weeks.Time passed so fast.I hardly could adapt to this new environment for the first few weeks.So many things to worry.We are so close. I see him 24/7. I hug and kiss him anytime I like.Amazingly, things have been going smooth and I miss my parent so much.It's so homely and warm to be with his family which I can never get to have the feeling again.Well, I don't even remember when is the last time I have a proper dinner with my family.Well, amazingly I actually could get along with his mother.I used to worry about getting along with his mother.Soon I get to know his elder brother-Beng Tack.Kinda cool person.Don't really crack jokes.When I was thinking of how to start a conversation with him he actually started to ask me some questions.Haha... you would never wanna see him smile.It's just so to little boy.Well at least i get to know him and found that underneath the mask,he is actually a nice guys.I will definately miss the the time staying over his house. My eating schedule has back to normal.At least,I have 3 meals everyday.I will definately miss you dear.I love you.I hope this moment never go.

I am not asking for a surprise party neither present from you guys! Is really that hard to just send a birthday wishes,drop by facebook to write a message.It doesn't even need to spend a single cent on it.It's really sad to have a 3 year friends to forget your birthday.Now I realise the closest friends you have are actually stranger to me.I know nat,chu ping,jian ping,wan wen,jac and Brandon for only 3 months.They could remember my birthday why couldn't you guys remember.Maybe I am really nothing to you guys.It has been the second Year this thing is happening.I keep on wondering what am I to you all.Maybe I am the stranger in the group but i never realise.3 months friendship couldn't even compete to a 3 years friendship.How stupid to realise now.

I just randomly read Dean's blog.Finally he is now settled at UK,starting something new,getting use to the new life,new place and new friends. I understand his feeling of being home sick, missing old friends and old days. Starting over in a alienated place wasn't easy. Look back to the old time when I first started to get use to the new environment, I couldn't stop laughing.How silly am I? Worried bout how to know new friends? Blaming my father of sending me to this SO call ATC college.No campus life,no friends accompanying me to school.Feeling so alienated and home sick.

Time flies.It's September now.I have my own gang and own friends.It's as if I know them for years.Thank you for giving me a surprise party.Thank you for remembering my birthday. The feeling of been forgotten is really terrible.I never want it again. Form 5 is a nightmare.Birthday been forgotten by very best friend... No I really don't wanna think back again. Having a friends that know me for a few months to celebrate birthday for me,i think I could put down the bad experience I have and continue my life.Whether they remember or not,it really doesn't matter now.

Thank you guys! I love you all.

ATC next top model.

I'm very light ok jacqueline danica lucas voon

Excuses me guys!This picture is only available for pretty girl ok.Please quiet up for the picture shooting.

Celebrating Thomas's 18th birthday at genting.Don't cry Thomas.

Sorry friends.It has been a long time I didn't update my blog.I was really,really,really busy with assignment and assessment.Time is so pack and rush.Due date is so near, exam is even near.I hardly could breathe.I was so glad that Dean was back but couldn't really meet up with him to listen to his INTERESTING story.I couldn't wait to see him tomorrow.Hopefully we could make it.I miss him a lot.

Recently was hanging up with new group of friends.A bunch of crazy,hyper,PERASAN,talkative,innocent,dirty,etc friends.They are a duplicated copy of me.I never feel so comfortable to hang up with them.Sharing our secret with each other.Teasing each other is our pass time hobby.Teaching Thomas about bad stuff are our talent.Being boyish and no image are Jac and my common personality.

The time we spent together at the room no. 7777 was the most fun and unforgettable time.How nice to have you all as friends.muakss..

我不敢相信我竟然对他坦白了。那一个礼拜发生的太快，也结束的太快。不敢相信我竟然做了不该做的事。但奇怪的是，我们总会有所谓的共同点。不敢相信他也会对我如此的坦白。

是，我很开心。是上天的安排，还是纯属巧合？我们有太多，太多的共同点了。对，我已经慢慢，慢慢，地爱上他了。我想，这就是所谓的缘分。缘分早就悄悄地走到我的身边了。只是，我一直紧闭着心，不愿面对现实。

My thought go out to you,my immortal beloved.

I can live only whelly with you or not at all-

Be calm my life,my all-

only by calm consideration of our existence

can we achieve our purpose to live together.

Oh,

Continue to love me,

Never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.

Ever thyme,

Ever mine,

Ever yours.

- Ludwig Van Beethoven-

Oh my goodness, I think i'm gonna gain weight after the trip back to Miri,

This morning,I ate kolok mee for brunch.Then I ate a chickne pie(shared with qi hong).In the evening,I ate Rojak with Jion.Finally,I had dinner with family.

Ahhh...I am so gonna gone crazy now.How many calories had I eaten?I need lot of exercise.Yeah!!must do something with it.The food here is just too nice.I just couldn't resist.